Imbecile

Wednesday, August 18, 2010 @ 5:34 PM

Today, was the first time i cried for joy.
Literally cried.

I was way beyond happy when my lao shi told me that ive got B3 for Chinese! I cant believe it, it only dawn on me after a couple of seconds on how much ive worked for this paper. It was more than intense, it was like hell. Ive never been able to get a B before, always fail or pass & get C6. But i never gave up. I kept working and working. Did countless of papers, watched dramas to improve my chinese, memorise, did notes on chinese (i mean who does notes for chinese eh?), go through past papers. I cant believe i actually went through the whole motion.

Atfirst, it was seriously a torture and pain to complete one chinese paper but the papers kept coming and we just have to do and do. After a while, i became numb when my lao shi gave us work to do. Even during our weekly intensive on wednesday last time. It starts from 2 30 to 330. But i always skip lunch to get a 'headstart' to finish the paper. Yet, after 3 30 im still not done when all my friends happily go home. I have to stay longer. All these hardwork, i know that ive made improvements.

B3 is seriously a score that im satisfied and this really proves that God is sooo sooo amazing. Even at times when i feel like giving up, He always gave me strength when i pray. He was always there and i felt his presence more in the examination hall. Though Chinese is already a challenge for me but my faith in God help me overcome this mountain. I am sincerely grateful for God's blessing and how he perform miracles in my life. I also am grateful for my family especially my mom, she was the one who was comforting me during my breakdowns, she was the one who believed in me when i ceased to believe in myself, she was the one who told me that i still have my family and God to rely on. Thank you. Last but not least, Ms Soh, my chinese teacher. Thank you for always encouraging me and telling me that i can do it. You were the one who helped me the most in my chinese language. I know it was also very tiring for you to mark our papers i really appreciate it. Im just happy that I did well and it was really touching when i saw how proud you were in your eyes.

To all who did not do well, I hope you guys will work hard and do better the second time. I do wish that you guys will also feel the satisfaction of achieving your goal. & that you will cry for joy just like me upon receiving your results. This verse is to encourage you guys, just like how this verse has really comforted me through the darkest times. Work hard and have faith in God even if it is as small as a mustard seed.

"Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9

so far out of reach