Imbecile

Sunday, February 21, 2010 @ 9:51 PM

day by day, its get worst. more painful.
you have given it your all, your 100%. but its never enough is it?
you did everything u could, sincerely. But nobody sees it
you put a fake smile to not let others worry about you. But u are punching urself every minute

Thinking back, all those times, why can i only think about the bad/difficult time? im thankful for having this oppurtunity, i really do. i learned so much from it, more than i can imagine. But the physically and emotionally pain is excruciating. Putting on a mask everyday, but its hurts so badly inside. I wonder why keep playing the nice guy, when others dont even appreciate.
others dont even see, but when you do it, the world sees it.

open your eyes, be more sensitive. Its not always about you.
you said things that hurt me straight to the core, and you are totally oblivious. what was i suppose to do at that moment? tell u to stfu? as much as i love you, i feel that im on a disadvantage. its never everyone, its always about you. you only think of you.
this has kept piling and piling... im tired of it. im sick and tired of everything.
time and time again this happens, i dont know if i can put on a smile anymore. cause when i dont, thats the last u'll see me happy.

LIFE IS SHIT PERIOD

so far out of reach