Imbecile

Tuesday, July 21, 2009 @ 9:45 PM

That feeling is back, why is everyone so involved when im not. like hello, im part of the team too. I feel so invinsible, and i hate this feeling.
Im ready to do whatever, just bring it on. But ur not giving it to me. It sucks when all ur other friends get busy at their designated stuff while im always doing the sucky jobs. (scare crows? wtf) It definitely is a humiliating incident, okay? I get this job for nothing seriously, whatever i do doesnt seem enough. I know sometimes i seem like i dont care but actually i do. I may look like i laugh too much, but thats my way of staying positive. God, help me overcome this feeling. its killing me from inside out. Lead the way Lord, lead the way...

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your path straight."

~ Proverbs 3:5-6

so far out of reach